There are years that ask questions and years that answer – Zora Neole Hurston.

Twenty Eighteen has been a year of answers,  my very first year of answers. It started with a lingering curiousity on how I can live a more fullfilled life. I had an ache all my life around the true meaning of my life so I invested time and resources towards soothing this ache the whole of Twenty Eighteen. It paid off! 

My biggest discovery was that the purpose of adulthood is to make make right what went wrong in childhood.Prior to this I thought that childhood is something we outgrow – you grow up and make your own decisions that stir a path to the rest of your life. Well, that’s akin to icing a rotten cake. I learned that I had to be able to process the things that happened to me as a child then look at how they still affect my life today. I had to go back to the first time I could remember feeling fear, unloved, ugly, rejected, threatened… understand when these emotions gained ground in my life and study their patterns until present day. This process was very tough for me to undergo. I moaned parts of me together with loved ones but for each thing I moaned, something new was birthed. 

Another Big one was the realization that we are all one, as a human race – no one is more or less, we are all enough. I believe in a higher power who I call God. I believe that each and everyone of us came from God and just like we have our ansectors’ DNA flowing in our blood, we have God’s spirit living in each and everyone of us. This gives us a dignity that cannot be stripped away. The recognition of this helps keep me level headed each time my ego wants to get the best of me. All I have to do is remember that God’s fingerprint is in all his creation to shift my state of mind into honor and gratitude. Today, I operate in a more centered place. I am learning and unlearning everyday but in a better place than I have been all my life.I have been inspired alot by my state of mind that I am hosting a Swap & Talk event. At this small and intimate event women will come together, swap fashion items and talk about progression topics, living and loving authentically, how to better embody feminine energy among others. I will be thrilled if you are in attendence.

Thank you for hanging out, Warm Hugs, Rebecca.

Photography Zahara Abdul Makeup yourfacebyhannah Location Olive Gardens Hotel